What’s provoked

The inevitable need for acceptance among the certain few whom fear the thought of being alone. You society, have peaked my interest while provoking an urge to understand the real behind what’s kept private. I am at a loss for words when actions supersede empathy. When did selfish become the new selfless?

This day

If time heals all wounds then I’d give anything to press fast forward, for it’s too late to press pause and stop was never an option.

Mirrored Monotony

As I torture myself with over analyzing I can’t help but think, why me? Why am I the one holding on to the thought of what was imagined when I started to fall? Where is the harness that I thought would hold me. Crash, burn and shatter without even the chance to redeem the bits before they break. My expectations superseded the actuality behind the reality of you. To live in the moment allows the ability to love outside the realms of judgment. If I creatively deny my emotional stability and rely on intuition will I be the lie that refuses truth? Blame through process bares fault…

Full Disclosure

Reflections can sometimes stem from subliminal interpretation. I am inside my own honest conviction no matter how hard I deny you. I’m ultimately entangled with the thought of unintentional comparison. I can’t be mirrored as a fallacy, nor can I walk away from what could’ve beens without ever offering myself the chance to be submissive to my own free will. I continue my moments embrace to understand what my experience has yet to provide me. I walk blindly into the light of another day with my heart wide open. Dark please don’t forsake me for I rely on you to hide me when pain proceeds me.

Actions have reactions

I can no longer accept someone’s ability to lie to themselves, therefor I can no longer protect your indiscretions. I attempt to justify the situation only to realize your justification would wrongly label the moral within myself. This chain of lie must be broken and admitted of. To live with admittance is better than shying in the lie of your irresponsible actions… With that being said I can no longer treat our friendship as truth, when it’s based on a lie and the failure to take responsibility for your complete lapse in judgement!

Patience

Excerpt from Patience:

I am no longer a child trying to over process what is not meant to be understood. I am merely a witness to what’s meant to be acknowledged beyond justification. I will hold you in my pocket within the realms of uncertainty, clearly there to embrace an action of intent. Spoken to truths we do not have what is thought to be a provided timeline. I will forever be ageless in the moment when my lips touch yours. Sacred seconds of unbreakable moments. I’d live in this second for eternity; but we are not promised forever…

Jack

You stole my innocence while laughing at my tears. I need to be set free. 6ft under isn’t far enough for me to regain the part of me that you so knowingly stole. I watched the earth absorb you while mother nature cried.

Lost in lust

Are we building these moments or tearing them down with our impenetrable lust?

Righting a wrong

Perfection is a misconception. We are flawed, broken and insecure. Sometimes taking extreme measures to help someone you love and ultimately hurting them through thoughtless actions. I can protect you; but I can’t save you. I can hold you as your tears fall; but I cannot take away your pain. I’m sorry my heart confused my judgment I want nothing more than to be your safety and comfort as a friend for life! I promise to always be there.

I thought wrong..

When someone has multiple forums to tell you that they can’t be your friend and instead the years awkwardly pass with avoidance, you feel lied to. Eventually you take the chance to confront them with the question; while it may be the most in opportune time they reveal that they can’t be your friend because of weird relationships that have developed. Unfortunately this is so hurtful that I can’t possibly comprehend!!! My heart hurts and hates false friendship…